I cannot LEAVE her! I can't...I just can't do it. How could I leave the best thing I have ever done for the first year of her life??? How?!?! But still, I can't decide. At this point, I am thinking if I get the stay-at-home job I will definitely take it. If I don't get the job, I don't know what I will do. I can't just stay home and not make any money. I have waaaayyyyy too many school loans to pay off, and I do waaaaaaaayyyy too much shopping when I am home to not be bringing in some money. I have my Mary Kay business, but I am just not excited about it anymore. I don't mind selling it to those who want it, but I'm not a sales-woman. I don't want to try to convince people to buy something they don't think they need. And let's be honest, it isn't the cheapest stuff ever. It's wonderful, but still not cheap. I just can't see myself making enough money doing MK. So then what do I do? If I don't get the job, do I go back to school? Do I leave my precious little bean to finish the schooling that I started? Then go to work part time in dentistry? Ugh. There's nothing like trying to make a major life decision. Not to worry though... I have a whole 3 weeks to decide. Sigh. So really, noting is official yet.
Easter weekend was wonderful. It was really busy though. Friday night we went bowling for my SIL's 13th birthday. Bean was passes around like we were playing hot potato. She did really really well, considering. When we got back to the in-laws, Bean projectile vomited. She only does it at at grandma and grandpa's house. It is the strangest thing. Saturday, I had a friend's bachelorette party/BBQ. It was really fun, but there were a lot of people there, which always takes the energy right out of me. Lydia's first Easter started out with church with DH's family. Then we went to my parent's house for brunch. After we chatted with them and my brother and SIL for a while, we went North to spend some time with DH's extended family. After that (yes, there's more), we stopped at DH's best friend's place so his mom and sister could meet the baby and we could say goodbye before he left for Montana. We finally made it back home around 10:00pm.Ufta. It was a loooong day but Bean did so well and looked so cute in her Easter outfit! :)
Annnnd her cute new hat! (Styles by B)
"IT'S OFFICIAL"... i miss bean. Can i see her soon? Guess what else, I miss you too. I hope you get the job - i'm pullin for ya!! Let's get together soon and discuss your options. It might be less stressful than you think.
ReplyDeleteSecondly, you have three weeks to decide and I have three weeks of stress too! So i think it's good timing for us to take a break and get coffee. No?
I heart you lots - hang in there and don't forget to smile :) you're so blessed!